today

have been avoiding writing the posts, its been so up and down. but lately more down.

today i just want to cry and scream and fuckkkkkkkkkkkkk fuck fuck fuckity fuck fuck fuck

sigh. just why. its just heart breaking.

no amount of self care takes away the broken heart. it helps to breathe when you are drowning in anxiety and angst and burnout. but your heart is so broken. you are obsessively in love, so in love it hurts. but it hurts like an ache that cant be explained.