You’d think as I grew more confident with raising an autistic son, I’d find more strength and feel more comfortable being able to talk about life and being around friends socially. I thought it would be that way.
I’ve started to feel like I’ve got nothing valid to say or offer the world in any kind of social situation. I don’t have any conversation I don’t have any small talk. I’m not sure what to say or do anymore.
I think I’m developing imposter syndrome where you feel like you are pretending. Life has changed so much and I am not the old person I was, I don’t have my old social skills anymore. Where do I develop this again? Where has my confidence gone?
I’m so nervous to even see anyone. Things can be so hard. Wish this person that I am becoming could find herself and figure out who I am. I don’t know who I am anymore.
Happy Monday, let’s start it all again.
A Journey to Joy 